Even though there are moments when you suddenly are so frustrated that you feel like falling to your knees and screaming at the top of your lungs, today was a good kind of struggle.
"The hardest things to do in life are the ones that are for your own good." --Rang so true for me today. I bit my tongue, stood up for myself, wasn't afraid to ask difficult questions, and was able to cut the chord that was wrapping itself around my throat.
I don't know why I have such a difficulty with change, but, damn it, I'm ready! I feel like I can breathe again. I was terrified, thinking, "Can I really do this? Can I really cut those ties? I know they bring sadness every time they're reexamined, but I just can't let them go." Well, the first step was taken for me when I found a chord already cut from another direction. That simplest of steps made every other seem possible; bearable. And with my little moment of courage, I finally cut those strings that were draggin me down.
I really feel like I can breathe again, and like there are absolutely no reasons for me to be afraid any longer.
I'm free.
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